LESSON LEARNED

SO I WAS LOOKING THROUGH OUR "JUNK DRAWER" TRYING TO FIND EARPHONES FOR MY IPOD, WHEN I CAM ACCROSS MY " DIRECTIONS FOR ETHAN'S FEEDING TUBE". WHEN ETHAN USED HIS FEEDING TUBE ( UNTIL HE WAS 3 MONTHS OLD) I WROTE OUT STEP BY STEP DIRECTIONS FOR ALL OF OUR FAMILY THAT WOULD BE WATCHING HIM. SO I FOUND THESE STUFFED IN THE " JUNK DRAWER" AND COULDN'T BELEIVE HOW LONG AGO THAT SEEMED.

IT BROUGHT ME BACK TO THOSE EARLY DAYS OF DOUBT THAT ETHAN WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO EAT ON HIS OWN. THERE WERE DAYS THAT I FELT SO DOWN AND DISCOURAGED AND DAYS THAT IT WOULD TAKE HIM LITERALLY AN HOUR TO GET 2 OUNCES OF MILK DOWN WITH A SYRINGE.

IT ALL SEEMS LIKE A DISTANT MEMORY, IT SEEMS LIKE FOREVER AGO. IT MADE ME OPEN MY EYES TO HOW FAR ETHAN HAS COME, IT IS TRULY AMAZING. HE HAS WORKED SO HARD TO BECOME WHO HE IS TODAY AND I AM SO PROUD OF ALL THE ACCOMPLISHMENTS SO FAR. IT MADE ME REALIZE THAT ALTHOUGH RIGHT NOW IT MAY FEEL LIKE HE WILL NEVER CRAWL OR NEVER WALK, HE WILL. HE WILL DO IT ON HIS OWN TIME, BUT HE WILL DO IT.

I DON'T THINK IT WAS AN ACIDENT THAT I CAME ACROSS HIS FEEDING DIRECTIONS, I THINK IT WAS MORE LIKE A WAKE UP CALL FOR ME. SOMEONE WAS TRYING TO TELL ME TO LET ETHAN DO THINGS ON HIS OWN TIME, CONCENTRATE ON THE THINGS HE CAN DO RATHER THEN THE THINGS HE CAN'T. DON'T EVER LET THE THINGS HE STRUGGLES AT OVER SHADOW THE THE THINGS HE HAS ACCOMPLISHED.

THIS TOO WILL SOON BE A DISTANT MEMORY.... LESSON LEARNED!